Amazingly, we have passed the halfway mark of our pregnancy. It is surreal to be able to say this as I honestly never believed it could happen for us. So we are nineteen weeks, going on twenty this Tuesday.
I feel like I am in a lovely dream, and every morning I wake up to see that my belly is a little bigger. This is making it really real. It is now too big for people to think I have been eating too many pies – I am obviously pregnant. You know how when you were a kid and tried to push your belly out as far as you could like a balloon, pretending you were pregnant? Well that’s what it feels like now for me, only I’m not trying to push it out – it’s doing that itself.
And most crazily and lovely; I have been getting little kicks for the past few weeks. They’ve been getting stronger and are always in one area – at the bottom of my belly, in my bladder area. My husband felt one with his hand the other day and was so excited!
So this seems to be really happening – it seems we are on the way to have a real bona fide baby. I feel very brave writing this down as to date we have been very cautious and superstitious, peppering everything we say about the baby with copious amounts of “touch wood”s, or ending with the caveat “if everything goes to plan.”
I guess this is one reason why I’ve been loathe to write anything too soon on this blog.
But with every week that passes, I feel more confident that every will be OK (touch wood!). Now we begin the countdown to the end…believe it or not; only twenty more weeks to go!