This morning I fed my daughter her last meal of breast milk which I expressed yesterday.
This is because today I began a new antidepressant called Pristiq which is too potent to continue breastfeeding on.
I feel really sad as I hoped to breastfeed her for as long as possible. But the paediatrician assures me that formula is fine and apparently the only slightly negative thing that has been proven is that cognitive development can be a tiny bit slower with formula-fed babes.
I have to keep expressing for a few days to avoid getting mastitis and because it will have traces of the drug in it, it cannot be used at all.
But as one of the nurses says: “Look in the cot and see what you’ve got” – which is a lovely little baby.
Pristiq will hopefully suit me better than the drug I tried last week, which was Zoloft – a breastfeeding-friendly medication. Zoloft made me feel sleepy, gave me headaches, a tight jaw and blurry vision, which wasn’t great. After four days my doctor took me off it saying it wasn’t suited to me.
Fingers crossed that giving up breastfeeding will be worth it and that this medication will work.